I’ve been through it all. The highs, the lows, the success, the failure, the ultimate college experience, the drugs, the insanity, experiencing death and new life, hope, hopelessness, contemplating suicide, finding my purpose, pursuing my dreams, and the redemption. The combination of these experiences has led me to realize who I am and what I am made of.
My mentality now is that nothing is out of reach. My mindset is nothing but positivity and a sense of optimism about my future. Once you hit rock bottom and lose all hope and get out of that state of mind you learn that you never want to go back to that state of mind. When you are given a second chance at life it makes you reevaluate your priorities and helps you realize what is truly important in life. From this I learned that I will never take anything that I have left for granted. I will focus on the things that I can do and not on the things that I cannot do. I will focus on what I have and not on what I do not have.
In my book and through this blog I have made myself very vulnerable. You would think that people may look down on you for the mistakes that you have made, but I have learned that people will praise you for having the courage to share your mistakes to show the lessons that you have learned.
I am an open book. I’m not ashamed of anything that I have done. I have found that being honest and coming clean about everything was the best decision I made in my entire life.
I share my mistakes so that others do not make the same ones that I did. There are consequences to our decisions and I do not want others to face the consequences that I had to face.
I believe that I was chosen to be in the situation that I am in now. I believe that I was chosen to teach others from the mistakes and the successes of my life. All of the hardships that I have gone through have been well worth it because now my story can be used as a tool for the prevention of hardship to others.
I live every day to the fullest. I love my life. I love the people in my life. I love looking ahead to the future. I truly have been through it all and I am thankful for that because now I have found myself. My life has purpose and meaning. Now I am alive and I promise myself to never stop living.