Dear God

Dear God,

Are you proud of me? Was I worth saving? Have I proven to you why I was worth saving? Was this the path you chose for me? Because it just seems so clear to me. Thank you for paving it for me. I’ve never been so focused or have seem so clear in my entire life. This life is just so easy now. But getting to this point was another story. But all of the pain, the tears, the anger, and the feelings of hopelessness were worth it to get here.

Were you with me the night of my accident? I thought so. I could feel you there. I felt that firm grip on the wheel and I knew that everything would be okay.

I’m sorry that I blamed you for so many things during that first year. I did not think you were there with me. But looking back on it I now know that you were there every day watching over me. You gave me my family and my friends to fall back on. You gave me my mom’s shoulder to cry on. You gave me my dad who made sure I had a home to come back to. You made my brother a nurse so that he could take care of me. You gave me everything I needed and I’m sorry that I blamed you for not being there.

I remember being in that Kohl’s bathroom crying and praying to you for a sign that everything was going to be okay. You gave it to me when that song came on the radio. I realized that I was praying for the wrong thing. I realized that I should be praying for happiness rather than to walk again. I finally felt like you were there with me again.

You helped me find my path through writing. You led me to stumble upon the therapy program that was offered in Columbus. You helped me find the perfect place to live. You found me the perfect person to take care of me who brought a smile to my face every day. I prayed for happiness and you brought it to me.

You made the impossible possible when I graduated from college. I asked for direction and on the day I graduated I already knew what I had planned for my life.

Originally I thought you were against me and now I know that you are with me every second of every day. I now pray to you every night because I know you’re with me and I know you are listening. I thank you for each thing that happened that day. I ask you to help me to continue to spread my message. I ask you to help my friend make a complete recovery from cancer and sure enough he has given me good news.

I sincerely thank you for everything you have done for me. I thought that life was too hard to handle but today things are easy. I have more than enough help and support. Thank you for giving me the chance to prove that my life was worth saving. I know that you had the final say in keeping me alive. I look forward to your plans for me for the future. Thank you for the bottom of my heart!

Adam